The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

‘Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’d send a postcard to you, dear
‘Cause I wish you were here

I’ll watch the night turn light-blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn’t so bad
‘Til I look at my hands and feel sad
‘Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I’ll find repose in new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
‘Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don’t feel so alone

I don’t feel so alone, I don’t feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I’ll think of you tonight
I’ll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I’ll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won’t forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I’d whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Hey there,

First and foremost, I think I should not start to bullshit that I’m back or whatsoever, as I’m never consistent. Sorry guys.. Just caught up with some other stuffs and also kind of lose momentum on writing. But here thought of starting up with my review on “Eclipse” which I had been waiting for months. Well finally it premiered on the 1st of July here in Singapore and my cousin actually booked the tickets 3 days earlier the show..

Well went with 6 of my loved ones, which includes, my best friend, my siblings and two of my cousins. Well, if we get together we are “so called” the crazy gang.

As always, thanks to my sis and my cousin sis who came in a lil late, kinda missed about 5 mins of the show.. & the funniest part was that, I actually thought I was in the wrong theatre…!! xD ! Until, i had to ask a guy who was sitting beside me and vithu, what movie was this.. I mean come on! What would you think when they start the movie with “Riley” starting up with a new vampire troupe[i actually missed it] and when the book starts with “Jacob’s” letter…!! :D Jokes apart. What would I say about the movie.. I was totally quiet when the movie was over. [my concentration was totally out actually!] but I would say that the movie was awesome! [ well at least for an ardent twilight saga fan] .. Not to mention about the peepz who came with me, besides my best friend, everyone else were disappointed and felt “cheated” ! haha..

First thing, when the movie was over, everyone turned to me and asked… “how was the movie? and i was just quiet… They ASSUMED i didn’t like the movie either, but they failed to realise that I was totally out of the world… They were all murmuring among themselves and my friend started asking me qns as she was the only soul found it fine… Stepping out from the theatre just me and finally this is what I exactly told in the lift ” well I should not expect much from the director, cos from a 542 pages of book coming out with a 2 hr movie, he did his best and hats off to him” and my cousin sister who stomped infront of me was like “akka I know you like the movie so much! so it’s ok ” :D

Well since I thought it was “PG” rated movie, I didn’t mind asking my bro to tag along with us.. But there were some scenes which could have been avoidable or at least rated as “NC16″ . Cos sitting beside your brother and watching it was kinda disaster.. xD!! no comments on that, cos for a youth movie.. it was “ahem .. ahem.. ” Rather then that Kristen Stewart [Bella] was looking pretty especially with her permed hair in graduation suit” Her acting were so the “Bella” kinda gal. I don’t understand why people mock her.. Her acting seemed to be perfectly fine for me and she does give that kinda “loner” and “anti-social” feel. Well for those who didn’t read the book, you don’t know her.. Get your facts right first…! [Guess am getting personal here.. Oooooops!] Awwww..Robert Pattinson[ Edward Cullens]!!!! He was way tooo better in “Eclipse” than in New Moon!!! Yes the “Twilight” Edward is back in action!!!!! ;) & off course not forgetting Taylor Lautner[Jacob Black] … Well the cunning little guy, did fairly well in his role too…. Well all were Perfecto! [at least for me] ….  It was that much can be done.. and was at least at it’s best[ex. for some unwanted scenes]…

Now for some scenes which I liked, for eg. the graduation speech by Jessica… It was so touching and the scene was beautifully taken… I looked at every inch of it and it sparkled me. Well the other one was especially the “tent” scene everyone is talking about… It was the most most most best scene ever….! Even though it is a little different compared to the book, I loved it to the max!! Guyss check out on the chapter of this particular scene.. It’s simply awesome.. [the convo btwn Jake and Edward] I found the war between the new born vampires , cullens and the warewolves could have been a little longer as it was like in “split seconds” [should blame the misleading trailer off course] …  & not forgetting, the scene between the father[Charlie] and daughter[Bella] was kinda cute! & off course dislocated..Lolzz.. Finally, the part, after the training for the war with the wolves and the cullens, the scene by Bella & Jake(as a wolf) was nice…    Hmmm… What else??? I wish I could go on and on but I guess it’s better for you guys to watch and enjoy it![at least twifans]

OK folks, that’s all for now…!!! No more promises, until then signing off….

One and Only

Naz ;)

PS: I suck at reviews.. :P

A gentle breeze having brought me up

When the eyes know what the heart decides

When silence in between resides

Neither do I nor you could speak

As the skies open up, when the suns had shone through the night

When the angels had come beside, there have a gentler touch

Night sings the silent whisper with the melody through the winds

A gentle breeze that’s bringing me up

Leaves a simple tale that’s left me drowned this lovely little night

You asked me what is it that I am crying for

I still wonder with you beside why am I tearing anymore

When those tears find a newer meaning today

May those that I shed on ur shoulders be the last one always

I’m still wondering why…but deep inside there’s jus too much

As time takes us by; let even my silence speak greater meanings of me or my life

Wish that you’d always be beside

Let the life set forth for us be that blessed one

Hey guys. This was something shared by my colleague to all of us. I thought I should share it here as well.

Check this out! Something which is very impt in our life.

Feeling down from time to time is a normal part of life. But when emptiness and despair take hold and won’t go away, it may be depression. More than just the temporary “blues,” the lows of depression make it tough to function and enjoy life like you once did. Hobbies and friends don’t interest you like they used to; you’re exhausted all the time; and just getting through the day can be overwhelming. When you’re depressed, things may feel hopeless, but with help and support you can get better. But first, you need to understand depression. Learning about depression—including its signs, symptoms, causes, and treatment—is the first step to overcoming the problem.

What is depression?

We all go through ups and downs in our mood. Sadness is a normal reaction to life’s struggles, setbacks, and disappointments. Many people use the word “depression” to explain these kinds of feelings, but depression is much more than just sadness.

Some people describe depression as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. However, some depressed people don’t feel sad at all—instead, they feel lifeless, empty, and apathetic.

Whatever the symptoms, depression is different from normal sadness in that it engulfs your day-to-day life, interfering with your ability to work, study, eat, sleep, and have fun. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness are intense and unrelenting, with little, if any, relief.

Are you depressed?

If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression.

* you can’t sleep or you sleep too much
* you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
* you feel hopeless and helpless
* you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
* you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
* you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual
* you have thoughts that life is not worth living (Seek help immediately if this is the case)

Signs and symptoms of depression

Depression varies from person to person, but there are some common signs and symptoms. It’s important to remember that these symptoms can be part of life’s normal lows. But the more symptoms you have, the stronger they are, and the longer they’ve lasted—the more likely it is that you’re dealing with depression. When these symptoms are overwhelming and disabling, that’s when it’s time to seek help.

Common signs and symptoms of depression

* Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
* Loss of interest in daily activities. No interest in former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.
* Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
* Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
* Irritability or restlessness. Feeling agitated, restless, or on edge. Your tolerance level is low; everything and everyone gets on your nerves.
* Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.
* Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.
* Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.
* Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.

Depression and suicide

Depression is a major risk factor for suicide. The deep despair and hopelessness that goes along with depression can make suicide feel like the only way to escape the pain. Thoughts of death or suicide are a serious symptom of depression, so take any suicidal talk or behavior seriously. It’s not just a warning sign that the person is thinking about suicide: it’s a cry for help.
Warning signs of suicide include:

* Talking about killing or harming one’s self
* Expressing strong feelings of hopelessness or being trapped
* An unusual preoccupation with death or dying
* Acting recklessly, as if they have a death wish (e.g. speeding through red lights)

* Calling or visiting people to say goodbye
* Getting affairs in order (giving away prized possessions, tying up loose ends)
* Saying things like “Everyone would be better off without me” or “I want out.”
* A sudden switch from being extremely depressed to acting calm and happy.

If you think a friend or family member is considering suicide, express your concern and seek professional help immediately. Talking openly about suicidal thoughts and feelings can save a life.

If You Are Feeling Suicidal…

When you’re feeling extremely depressed or suicidal, problems don’t seem temporary—they seem overwhelming and permanent. But with time, you will feel better, especially if you reach out for help. If you are feeling suicidal, know that there are many people who want to support you during this difficult time, so please reach out for help!

Depression in teens

Depression in teens. While some depressed teens appear sad, others do not. In fact, irritability—rather than depression—is frequently the predominant symptom in depressed adolescents and teens. A depressed teenager may be hostile, grumpy, or easily lose his or her temper. Unexplained aches and pains are also common symptoms of depression in young people.

Left untreated, teen depression can lead to problems at home and school, drug abuse, self-loathing—even irreversible tragedy such as homicidal violence or suicide. But with help, teenage depression is highly treatable.

Depression in older adults

Depression in older adults. The difficult changes that many older adults face—such as bereavement, loss of independence, and health problems—can lead to depression, especially in those without a strong support system. However, depression is not a normal part of aging. Older adults tend to complain more about the physical rather than the emotional signs and symptoms of depression, and so the problem often goes unrecognized. Depression in older adults is associated with poor health, a high mortality rate, and an increased risk of suicide, so diagnosis and treatment are extremely important.

Depression in men

Depression is a loaded word in our culture. Many associate it, however wrongly, with a sign of weakness and excessive emotion. This is especially true with men. Depressed men are less likely than women to acknowledge feelings of self-loathing and hopelessness. Instead, they tend to complain about fatigue, irritability, sleep problems, and loss of interest in work and hobbies. Other signs and symptoms of depression in men include anger, aggression, violence, reckless behavior, and substance abuse. Even though depression rates for women are twice as high as those in men, men are a higher suicide risk, especially older men.

Depression in women

Rates of depression in women are twice as high as they are in men. This is due in part to hormonal factors, particularly when it comes to premenstrual syndrome (PMS), premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD), postpartum depression, and perimenopausal depression. As for signs and symptoms, women are more likely than men to experience pronounced feelings of guilt, sleep excessively, overeat, and gain weight. Women are also more likely to suffer from seasonal affective disorder.

Types of depression

Depression comes in many shapes and forms. The different types of depression have unique symptoms, causes, and effects. Knowing what type of depression you have can help you manage your symptoms and get the most effective treatment.

Major depression is characterized by the inability to enjoy life and experience pleasure. The symptoms are constant, ranging from moderate to severe. Left untreated, major depression typically lasts for about six months. Some people experience just a single depressive episode in their lifetime, but more commonly, major depression is a recurring disorder. However, there are many things you can do to support your mood and reduce the risk of recurrence.
Atypical Depression

Atypical depression is a common subtype of major depression. It features a specific symptom pattern, including a temporary mood lift in response to positive events. You may feel better after receiving good news or while out with friends. However, this boost in mood is fleeting. Other symptoms of atypical depression include weight gain, increased appetite, sleeping excessively, a heavy feeling in the arms and legs, and sensitivity to rejection. Atypical depression responds better to some therapies and medications than others, so identifying this subtype can be particularly helpful.
Dysthymia (recurrent, mild depression)

Dysthmia is a type of chronic “low-grade” depression. More days than not, you feel mildly or moderately depressed, although you may have brief periods of normal mood. The symptoms of dysthymia are not as strong as the symptoms of major depression, but they last a long time (at least two years). These chronic symptoms make it very difficult to live life to the fullest or to remember better times. Some people also experience major depressive episodes on top of dysthymia, a condition known as “double depression.” If you suffer from dysthymia, you may feel like you’ve always been depressed. Or you may think that your continuous low mood is “just the way you are.” However, dysthymia can be treated, even if your symptoms have gone unrecognized or untreated for years.

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD)
There’s a reason why so many movies and books portray rainy days and stormy weather as gloomy. Some people get depressed in the fall or winter, when overcast days are frequent and sunlight is limited. This type of depression is called seasonal affective disorder (SAD). Seasonal affective disorder is more common in northern climates and in younger people. Like depression, seasonal affective disorder is treatable. Light therapy, a treatment that involves exposure to bright artificial light, often helps relieve symptoms.

Depression causes and risk factors

Some illnesses have a specific medical cause, making treatment straightforward. If you have diabetes, you take insulin. If you have appendicitis, you have surgery. But depression is more complicated. Depression is not just the result of a chemical imbalance in the brain, and is not simply cured with medication. Experts believe that depression is caused by a combination of biological, psychological, and social factors. In other words, your lifestyle choices, relationships, and coping skills matter just as much — if not more so — than genetics. However, certain risk factors make you more vulnerable to depression.

Causes and risk factors for depression

* Loneliness
* Lack of social support
* Recent stressful life experiences
* Family history of depression
* Marital or relationship problems

* Financial strain
* Early childhood trauma or abuse
* Alcohol or drug abuse
* Unemployment or underemployment
* Health problems or chronic pain

The cause of your depression helps determine the treatment

Understanding the underlying cause of your depression may help you overcome the problem. For example, if you are depressed because of a dead end job, the best treatment might be finding a more satisfying career, not taking an antidepressant. If you are new to an area and feeling lonely and sad, finding new friends at work or through a hobby will probably give you more of a mood boost than going to therapy. In such cases, the depression is remedied by changing the situation.

The road to depression recovery

Just as the symptoms and causes of depression are different in different people, so are the ways to feel better. What works for one person might not work for another, and no one treatment is appropriate in all cases. If you recognize the signs of depression in yourself or a loved one, take some time to explore the many treatment options. In most cases, the best approach involves a combination of self-help strategies, lifestyle changes, and professional help.

Ask for help and support

Ask for help and supportIf even the thought of tackling your depression seems overwhelming, don’t panic. Feeling helpless and hopeless is a symptom of depression—not the reality of your situation. It does not mean that you’re weak or you can’t change! The key to depression recovery is to start small and ask for help. Having a strong support system in place will speed your recovery. Isolation fuels depression, so reach out to others, even when you feel like being alone. Let your family and friends know what you’re going through and how they can support you.

Make healthy lifestyle changes

Lifestyle changes are not always easy to make, but they can have a big impact on depression. Take a good look at your own lifestyle. What changes could you make to support depression recovery? Self-help strategies that can be very effective include:

* Cultivating supportive relationships
* Getting regular exercise and sleep
* Eating a healthy, mood-boosting diet
* Managing stress
* Practicing relaxation techniques
* Challenging negative thought patterns

Learn social and emotional skills

Many people lack the skills needed to overcome stress and make satisfying connections to others and these limitations may contribute to depression. This is a skill set that can be learned.

Seek professional help

If positive lifestyle changes and support from family and friends aren’t enough, seek help from a mental health professional. There are many effective treatments for depression, including therapy, medication, and alternative treatments. Learning about your options will help you decide what measures are most likely to work best for your particular situation and needs.

Effective treatment for depression often includes some form of therapy. Therapy gives you tools to treat depression from a variety of angles. What’s more, what you learn in therapy gives you skills and insight to prevent depression from coming back.

Some types of therapy teach you practical techniques on how to reframe negative thinking and employ behavioral skills in combating depression. Therapy can also help you work through the root of your depression, helping you understand why you feel a certain way, what your triggers are for depression, and what you can do to stay healthy.

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