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Haha.. Well who is that for?? Who else.. For the person who set up this blog for me.. Anyway ya.. Why is that?? Had some plans of making changes in my blog this weekend and needed his help.. But then my poor buddy fall sick! :( Get well soon Aneef. My prayers are always there for you.. ;)
Okiez now what! Well Happy B’day Raheemah Akka.. Can’t wait to watch Ayan today with my cousins. Hmmm.. itz been very long since we all met. As all of us are busy.. & our off days always failed to click.. Haiz.. Whatmore??? Actually, supposedly i was suppose to be working today from like 2.30 – 12 despite being a public holiday! But since it was my cousin’s b’day and had some plans for the evening, I was a lil “kiasu” keke.. and made some swaps with my colleague Keng Yeow from Tues’s off day to today… Keke.. Thank you Keng Yeow!!
Phew! These days i’ve been feeling the level of stress in my work.. Sometimes it can get into my head as some cases are really.. *bweak* and we will be like :S.. Well work wise even, when its very stressful at times.. Sometimes i’ll be like way to free.. & like i always mention.. My colleagues.. They are very good!! Fun loving environment i would say!! Mostly crazy ppl.. Muahahaha… Well they are cool dudes and dudettes who are very helpful & supportive.. What more an employee wants in his/her working environment ah?? & my team leads.. Lucky to get such leads… Though sometimes their jokes can go over the limit! OooooopZ! Lolz… Otherwise.. they are good people..
Well about my studies.. Aft going thru all kinds of stress, depression and unable to do my stats assignment and all.. Somehow or rather i produced something and eventually submitted it. As of now i’m free from studies and my mind is like 50% off free from studies.. I know i need plenty of rest.. and especially a BREAK! looking for a right time… Well whatever it is..Everyone is busy right now! Need to create my own form of relaxation. At least for the rest of the yr this yr. I can put a hold for my studies…
Haiz.. Miss those school days i had… Miss all my friends very very much.. Some started their life with husbands and kids, while some are still studying and working at the same time which keeps them busy often, some are in their entertainment world, clubbing and having fun, while some are settled down with work.. While me having unstable working schedules.. Miss those outings we use to have almost everyday during that time.. Haha.. was having a short chat with a gal who is like 14 this yr, Anu. Well she has been asking me to work on my Photoshop Tutorials and produce something. Yst she asked me if i was seeing the tutorials and working on the Photoshop thingy. & I told her i was very busy lately.. As in being at work most of the time.. & that cute gal was like ” i understand. its good to be young with a :) ” and i was like ” sooo true” those days, times where we we naive with no responsibilities. All we have was homeworks… kekeke..but now.. haha.. plenty plenty.. and imagine, if aft marriage.. muahaha wow! nice talking abt childhood days ah..
Speaking abt marriage…. Grr my relatives are the most irritating creatures in the whole wide world who have got nth better to do then to poke their nose in other ppl’s life…. Telling all sorts of things to my parents and creating problems here.. despite whatever happen.. Can u pls let me get over it first ?!?!? I mean come on! Just cos ur daughter or son or whoever got married early, doesn’t mean i should get married early like them right??? Moreover i guess that they just can’t stand that my mum’s children are doing well in work and studies and unlike theirs..and soo they are jealous of us and trying ruin us with even the tiniest (-)ve things they can bring out from us.. I mean this is what they make us thinK?? Wonder.. what is in their mind?? All they does, to cover their b*** they, somehow poke into other ppl’s b*** …..
Okiez enough of them.. I don’t wish to dirty my blog with those ppl.. & what else.. Nth much though.. Have not watch KKK for like for the past 3 Weeks! Miss it loadz though.. Even it sux big time at times.. I did catch a glimpse of kkk at home.. While they telecast it here.. As of now.. Very much looking fwd to watch Ayan and Pattaalam… I feel that i missed way too many of my fav tv programmes..I used to be like a tv addict who wil watch all kinds of shows from cartoon till movies.. Miss shows like local chinese, english, malay and tamil dramas.. and then.. disney shows which are my all time favs…Cartoons like spongebob, winx club, so on… AMERICAN IDOL.. Phew!! Use to be a person who will nvr miss even a show! American top model’s, Oprah’s show, Numb3rs, OTH, Heroes, Desperate Housewifes, Survivor, F.R.I.E.N.D.S.. List goes on and on..Keke.. Ok ok.. thats all folks for now!! WIll update if possi on Ayan..
Adioz…… :P
Now to my entry…
Hehe.. Now at work. Hmm.. What shall i say abt it… Actually i don’t really want to talk abt it though… Things are going perfectly alright.. N abt my team members.. They are really good! ;)
Its just a lil stressful.. But tell me which work is not! I’m lucky in a way though. I always wished to work in an environment where i need not bring my work back home. & here i am.. haha.. wanna know what i mean.. Its not abt doing work at home.. But its abt bringing ur stress, emotions home… Which i’m free from this place.. No politics that i have seen in my previous companies.. Well not that i can see off?!? Getting use to everything… ;)
Ok now what??! Had my evo exams yesterday… Hmm surprisingly the paper was pretty straight-forward.. & I should say i was lucky! I only had a little time revising as i was busy cracking my head for stats!!!! Statistics in Psychology! Grrr.. I feel sooo irritated by just seeing the title.. I did not expect it to be such a pain… Have not completed that assignment and i can’t get hold of my lecturer.. I guess he must be busy with RT :( ….. Now working on the research project which was assigned to me… & this time is about Freudian’s 15 principles… Having my last exam on fri which is Addictions.. I’m kinda prepared for it.. But have got left to do with revisions…. Have decided to put a hold for my stats and study my addictions first. Am just soo worried that i’m unable to concentrate on anything just bcos i’m unable to do my stats… Well things have been not really working find for me lately.. Am losing interest in stuffs i love to do previously! :’( One of which is Psychology… I mean studies.. Ooops!
Haha.. I’m just tooo stressed that i’m talking sad stuffs up there.. Lets see if i got something interesting to share! Well oh yeah.. It is kinda interesting but yet sad on my side.. :S Hmmm.. I used to have a crush when i was a kid.. hehe.. well yeah!! i met him when i was in Pri 4…. 9+ yrs old then..We were good friends then but from the different classes… When we got into the same class the following yr… We became enemies.. :( … haha just cos my best friend did not get along well with him… grrr…We usually meet in tamil class only.. Haha.. i seriously have no idea when this crush thing came abt.. Hmm surprisingly, aft PSLE when the students get to choose their sec sch… All my tamil classmates chose that particular school.. But to my surprise.. only we both got into the same school.. Hahaha.. What a thing! keke.. But then as usual.. we weren’t from the same class. We only met in tamil class… Ok Ok… Enough of the introduction… No what! The last yr i met him was the yr 2002 when i left my sec sch..that was the time i realised i actually missed him.. he left sch at the same time.. from then there was no way i could ever see him.. I roughly knew where he stayed and whenever my bus passed by that way i would always look forward to see if he was there.. but he nvr appeared infront of me.. I had this kind of crush all this while.. but only shared with my friends in the yr 2005.. Till now i had a small wish.. that at least once i should see him.. and yeah! My wish came true last yr… During that time when i saw him.. I did not really recognise him.. My friends has seen him.. and they told him that he changed alot and all.. which made me look forward to see him more.. but then.. when i saw him yst.. i was sooo shocked! he was with his malay friends.. body full of tattoos.. piercings.. hmmm… :( It hurts me alot! It makes me think that.. I should have at least being his friend.. and probably he would not be like that now.. Now i’m wondering.. How i would have not seen him instead.. Well i did not wan to appear infront of his eyes.. & so i moved away.. with a broken heart! Ppl change.. He was the most brightest student among us.. n now.. where is he up to????
:’( …… I’m feeling so so so so tired!! Whole week of training.. Too technical i feel.. Haiz.. Sooo much things to learn!! Pretty afraid though.. Grrr…
Anyway my whole of last week went by, by training and classes.. I’ve got plenty of assignments to do and am like feeling sooooooo tired.. Hehe.. Still have got about 2+ more assignments to do.. Spent my whole day yst sitting in front of my lappy and doing my assignment.. and all.. Well in btwn was watching videos and surfing around as well.. Night going in and out of my room as well.. haha.. as in go in to sleep and come out to continue with my work lor.. what else.. yeahh last night learnt how to use photoshop from a good friend.. Actually there were soo many attempts whereby i went in and came out like zillion times.. :D then finally went in and thought just give it a try! :D haha.. but still i was abt to come back when i bumped into the gal on msn.. She thought me the minor stuff.. and somehow just practice with that… Hahaha.. that lil gal gave me an assign to create my own sig for a forum.. and m like trying to work on it though… but then did a simple design on my fav pic instead.. :D
Hmmm still have to undergo another week of training and am like wondering how is it gonna be like.. Well am very happy with my team though… Seem a very happening one!! The feel of coming to work is pleasant.. & the 3 of them who are with me are very easy to mingle with.. We get along pretty well.. ;)keke.. so yeah.. i like my job scope and environment.. which is very impt for me.. So am pretty happy to stay here though.. Well not really looking fwd to start work. Pretty nervous about that… But i believe as the time goes by.. I’ll be perfectly alright… Last week was pretty tough for me.. Cos i started my week by attending both the training and my class.. Which make me feel weak.. Cos there are way to many things to absorb in both.. My following week would be the same though.. Just waiting for my training to get over first.. & off course my course as well.. which would be over by next mth end.. yippidi!!!!
& then what else.. Nth much as of now.. I still have not make up my mind on my research project.. Still confuse on what i wanna research on. My lecturer suggest me to have my sampling on my friends.. Since i just started with my current work.. I can’t do much in there.. But still a pretty confuse abt that…
After attending my stats class, i would coming out from my lecture room with a BIGGGG QN MARK IN MY HEAD! … cos its that much of stress it is causing.. Especially on the research method modules.. Our lecturer always attack us with the pitfalls of a research which scares us to the max!!! Yeah no one is perfect though.. But our work is all abt how we convince our hypothesis of our work.. We can do any research on our friends.. But then.. what is the purpose for that.. Using that research, what can one do abt that???? Grrrrrr…. Hehehe.. You must be a good narrator.. keke
Hmmm.. watched Fashion yesterday.. Liked that movie very much.. :P … Looking forward KKK next week.. keke… Finally Puli & Prabhu are back in action… Wow!! I was dumbfounded to see Rishi… He changed alot!!! As in physical appearance.. And the highlight was his facial hair!! Looked pretty messy though.. But he looked pretty cool ;) Teared @ the last part of the episode though.. Where Shri’s dad would call him a loser… :’( No matter what.. Parents should not use such words like stupid, loser or anything degrading towards their children.. Even though they feel that the children had gone astray… It would create a lot of impact in them and would affect their future.. Usually its cured by REBT & CBT.. Firstly finding out the reasons for the kid on why is he behaving such.. & then CBT is on getting instructions about the past. By using that therapy they would let that particular incident to fade away from the person’s life and change their perspective about themselves
Ok now back to KKK.. Well they ended where the father telling Shree that he was a “Zero” which brought tears in me.. :’( .. But then at the same time focusing on the other son Vicky feeling guilty. Cos his bro was taking the blame for something he and his friends did..even though it was an accident!
Hmm.. So i feel that probably in the following epi.. he might own up!! Really hope things will change in KKK…
Ok folks.. Thats all for today!!
hey guys… back with my stuffs.. ;) one whole week.. phew!! extremely bored @ work! Joined a new organisation as a SCO.. With regards to different scope of work life.. Singapore..
Ok back to my work!!! Hotline consultant.. Grr.. I felt sooo damn bored this whole week!!! As in our trainer was on leave till fri. Made us sit and listen to calls.. till we were bored and tired to dead… kekeke.. somehow it ran.. and guess what?? was spending my time smsing my friends.. Lolz.. Sending fwd msges and chatting with my friends and cousinss…. All were like.. “whats wrong with u?? so many fwd msges…??” and my reply was that… probably in future they would not be receiving those.. so save it up …. :D 300 over msges within a week.. Lolz… was pretty surprised when how my trainer told us how we would be scheduled.. i was like :O … oh no!!! hahaha..
phew!! lately have been constantly listening to villu songs non-stop humming and singing nee kobapattaal song.. and other songs as well.. all the song rox!!! daddy mummy toppin in sg’s top 10 songs.. and then theemtanakka thillana.. voice of devi sri prasad is hot! very attitude kinda song! hey rama.. as usual vijay’s opening songs rock all times… are u crazy..>soo damn cute! though i don’t much kinda like nayanthara being there.. :P jalsa song.. oh gosh.. the starting part of the song ” saregamapatha nisa ada come come say jalsa! phew!! is the fantastic opening of that song!and somekind of electric kind of endings both the original and remix version..haha..and then followed by vada maapilai.. “epadi epadi..apadi apadi..”, “balle balle”, “bloody bugger” by vadivelu.. its a cute song!!! followed by nee kobappathaal.. lyrics awesome!!very cute and nice.. first 5 lines of the songs..“nee kobappatthaal naanum kobappaduvaen.. etc etc… and then finally.. “nee ennai maranthaal matthum uyirai viduvaen”.. though this line contrast with the first 5 lines.. its very sweet and cute!!! and then.. followed by.. the first stanza of the song..nee pesum vaarthai kavithai endru vimma maathein.. nee peralagi endru poyai solla maathein.. etc etc…goes like this.. very very cute!! and then the second stanza totally sweet.. “unai uppu moothai katthi kondu toonga vaipaen……..etc etc.. and then ada sunday kooda kaathalukku velai vaipaen… etc etc.. and finally.. “nee vali koduthaalum thaangiduvaen.. nee ennai maranthaal matthum uyirai viduvaen!! (fav of the fav verse..)nicee.. and most imptly.. vijay in that song!! the part where… “nee ketkaamal ponaalum katthi solluvaen baby i love you… nee nikkaamal ponaalum turathi solluvaen baby i love you.. wowow.. what a expression.. what a dance step.. its still there visualising in my mind whenever i listen to this song.. sooo damn cute!!! vijay has this smile.. where whenever we see that smile.. whatever sorrow in our mind..it will just fly away!! what a smile man!!!!“ sirippazhagan! according to me…in my fav list of fav music directors.. have added devi sri prasad as well.. well am in love with his songs.. and did not realise that he was the music director for movies like something something, sachein, santhosh subramaniyam, mazhai, aaru and etc etc.. hehe.. comparison btwn villu and ayan.. Villu for me!!! Awesome.. Love all the songs.. and have been listening to it for like weeks already… hehe i can’t believe that he actually sang songs like jalsa, kanmoodi and many more..Hmm great in singing and music composing.. ;)
hmm as for ayan songs.. well its sooo not like harris jeyaraj composition.. his VA was an awesome album.. so when comparison to that.. Ayan lacks it… The magical part in his music is missing… Well only two songs from that movie i find it ok.. One is oyayiyae.. and Vizhi mudi.. Oyayiyae music reminds me more of VA’s adiyea kolluthey.. though i feel adiyea kolluthey song is way too catchy compared to this.. but then.. with the bubbly singer like benny dayal and famous singers like hariharan and chinmayi..did brought some sparkle in that song… where else vizhi mudi.. which is famous among ppl now.. i have this kind of nostalgia feeling of the music.. Its very familiar.. especially where this part of the song from “mazhai kiliyea x2 .…” the music there seems sooooo familiar.. where else the next song “pala palakkira” songs reminds me of one simbu’s movie song.. if i’m not wrong Alai.. the middle part of the music in both songs.. “nee oru thesam” –> correct me if i’m wrong.. and a mixture of other songs as well… as for nenje nenje.. same nostalgia feeling.. and honey honey.. not much of a interest though.. :P .. feeling sooo unoriginal.. So yeah… Well music directors like ARR, YSK and HJ.. They created a name for themselves and the fans of them are wide.. But i also feel that DSP is coming up too.. His music seems more youthful and very sweet.. Especially comparison towards Santhosh Subramaniyam & Something Something.. Very very sweet… I’ve got this all time fav music from Something Something ” Un paarvaiyil song” [3:18 to 3:37 ] and then his Santhosh Subramaniyam and Sachein’s Theme bgm.. kind of very youthful.. But then ppl.. am not comparing his with the Great ARR or YSK or HJ.. but i feel he is also one of the aspiring Music Director.. ;) Phew!! haha.. surprise man! am writing my opinions abt these Music directors.. Lolz.. Cos i was nvr a person who bother which music director compose this or that.. I will just listen to good songs.. But due to friends influence.. Hahaha…become like that.. Lolz..
Ok then what else… Phew!!! Wrote alot today.. Keke.. Now abt KKK.. should catch the wed’s epi.. Love it!! The blue boys were sooo damn cute!!! & they acted very well.. for the first time.. felt the presense of the batch 1 students from KKK… ;)
Well am like jumping here and there.. Now need to continue with my assignments.. Felt a lil down.. But somehow kept myself up by blogging..and watching sachein.. while doing assignments.. and also listen to villu songs!!! kekeke.. as long everyone is happy i’m happy… adiozzzz
Regards,
Naz :P
Hey back once again to continue my previous post! Watching special programme on tv while typing this..
Yeah so feels good when i started my old habits…. Year 2008 have not been my yr.. I restricted myself from doing things due to some circumstances and got myself into depression.. Well abt paranoia stuffs.. I pushed myself so much for my studies as well.. Which also led me to this.. :)
Well new yr is coming in one week..
Looking forward the new yr… Things don’t have to be best… But really hope things will get better the next yr.. yeah! 2008 is a yr i met ppl whom i value very much.. as well as i also met ppl whom i regret meeting.. I also lost ppl..Always telling myself not to be angry with anyone and get annoyed unnecessarily….. & am really working on it.. :) hmm what else…. Getting myself involve in voluntary stuffs and projects, make me change to a better person…
Ok back to my title.. Lolz.. Y this title?? ah?? haha.. it was just a random thing.. ;) i can come out with all kinds of crazy stuffs… and one of it is this… its just a some sort of thought.. feeling that… when u like something.. its just not there.. hmmm…
Singapore has been really cold these days! I do not need to on my air-con or fan.. Even when i wake up with neither of them, i still feel that i’m up from my lecture room.. Today day went very fast.. I started out this post in the morning… But now ending it @ night.. :D >> this always happens when i’m lost with words..
Gonna finish my chapter 6 before going to bed!! am already feeling sleepy.. Nitey Nitez..
