Archive for 2011
Yo! Having been dominated by my ego, it refrained me from visiting here, but finally I told my ego “to hell with you” and here I come.. I “miss” my blog.. I “miss” the freedom of my usage in this blog…
“Nazreen!!!!! Nazreen!!!!” 6 am in the morning… Imagine, I was dread tired and just didn’t want anyone to disturb me… The least thing I ever expected to come when I’m asleep.. The knocks… it came… NO CHOICE but to just get up my sleep and open the door… “Enna ma………….” It was due to the exam paper i set… Answered her queries and went back to sleep…
Finally the sleep I ever expected was here… It was indeed a peaceful night without any worries or tensions on assignments… Having been going through nightmares lately, puffy eyes, frequent migraines.. Well I have a very less tolerance level of stress and therefore tend to fall ill whenever I’m stress..
Here comes the weirdest nightmares ever…. Recently I’ve been finding myself down with nightmares on my assignments.. I woke up several times in the middle of the night finding myself walking around in my house trying to hit back to bed… Hearing voices(from the assignment) during the nights asking me to go and do my assignments.. I see letters and words and numbers and references and everything which have got to do with assignments… How true, indeed, we are being bombarded with assignments which leads us to depression.. Wondering if the university will do something about it, and how I wish my lecturer actually does what she told us on the feedbacks she was going to give to the university.. Apparently this is what happens. Having being discussing about assignments, even in our whatsapp threads or facebook group threads, day and night, imagine yourself waking up with 100 over msges every morning.., informations shared by your mates, it tends to give us more fears on every mi-nute single things. How many words for title? hanging indent for references? how many words for abstract? can’t we exceed this amount of words?? etc etc.sometimes i feel like missing them by offing the alerts and all but eventually afraid of missing any important information from them… its scares all of us on thinking of how much will they penalize for every mi-nute mistakes we make.! Phew such a battle it is… Several times breaking down and feeling of banging my head in the wall saying – STATS GO AWAY FROM ME… I’m taking 3 modules and every other modules am pulling it through well except for this STATS!
So what’s next?? Just a day of celebration and back to the next assignment submission coming next week?? Pheww!!!! I just can’t wait to get over with these… & exams coming soon??? *sweats* HOWEVER i found myself entering into the new world.. Even though it’s really sucking my blood throughout, I met people with all walks of life, and putting our heads together and working on things together had thought me several lessons in life…. It inspired me to move forward working through my goals despite anything… It’s tough but at the same time it’s worth the try :) Awww something just pop up my mind at this very moment! “YNWA” Ah Ah… That’s the spirit! Jia You!!
Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil
Imaigalai Thotthu Pesuthey…
Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai
Mazhai Veyil Tharum..
Unnidam Paarkiraen Naan Paarkiraen
En Thaai Mugam Anbe
Unnidam Thorkiraen Naan Thorkiraen
Ennaagumo Inge
Muthan Muthalaai… Mayangugiraen…
Kannaandi Pola Thondrinaai
En Munbu Ennai Kaathinai
Kana Engum Vinaa
Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil
Imaigalai Thotthu Pesuthey…
Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai
Mazhai Veyil Tharum..
Nee Vanthaai En Vaazhvile…
Poo Poothai En Veilei..
Naalaiye Nee Poogalam
En Nyabagam Nee Aagalaam…
Ther Sendra Pinnaale Veedhi Ennaagumo..
Yaar Ivan? Yaar Ivan?
Or Maayavan Meiyanavan Anbil
Yaar Ivan? Yaar Ivan?
Naan Nesikkum Kanneer Ivan… nenjil
Inam Puriya… Uravidhuvo
En theevil Pootha Puvidhu
En Nenjil Vaasam Thuvudhu
Manam Engum Manam
Vizhigalil Oru Vaanavil
Imaigalai Thotthu Pesuthey…
Ithu Enna Puthu Vaanilai
Mazhai Veyil Tharum..
Naan Unakkaaga Pesinen
Yaar Enakkaaga Pesuvaar
Mounamai Naan Pesinen
Neevantha Kanavenge Kaatril Kai Veesinaen….
Anbenum Thoondile Nee Veesinaal
Meenaagiraen Anbe…
Unmunbu Thaanada Ipothu naan
Pennaagiraen Inge..
Thayakangalaal.. Thinarugiraen…
Nilendru Sonna Podhilum…
Nillaamal Nenjam Odudhe..
Itho Unthan Vazhi…
Thana nana nana naa nanaa
Thana nana nana naa nanaa
Thana nana nana naa nanaa
Nana Nana Nanaa…
I’ve always been the kind of girl that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world what I’ve got to say
But I have this dream right inside of me
I’m gonna let it show, it’s time
To let you know
To let you know
This is real, this is me
I’m exactly where I’m suppose to be, now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now I’ve found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
Do you know what it’s like to feel so in the dark?
To dram about life where you’re the shining star
Even though it seems like it’s too far away
I have to believe in myself, it’s the only way
You’re the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I’m singin’
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You’re the missin’ piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you
You’re the missin’ piece I need, the song inside of me
You’re the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I’m singin’
Now I’ve found, who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me…
OMG! What a coincidence… My blog is 3 yrs old today…
First and foremost a Very Happy Birthday SparklingCherry :D
It was a random visit here today and wanted to know when was this blog initiated.. Only to find out it was 3 yrs back in 2008 this day :)
Well what else.. Got really busy lately.. Eid was/is still here and also busy entertaining visitors… As much as I try to get away with all these, I couldn’t.. Wait! :D It’s not that I’m being anti-social or something, but I’m just too busy with some other things…
Well term started and am overwhelmed… Yes, really overwhelmed with the course and tonnes of assignments to be done.. This term am taking 3 modules.. No. might sound small, the work load is humungous..
Friday was somewhat an open house in my place and therefore, there were several people invited to my house on that day! Well initially I wanted to invite all my friends coming Friday, but unfortunately cancelled it due to the cramped schedule I had. And therefore only invited 2 of my best friends on Last Friday… It was indeed an awesome day! My relatives, mum friends and all were there.. Was super duper busy… Cleaning, preparation and all… Pheww.. as always, mum’s cooking was awesome.. Alhamdulillah all went well and smoothly.. Everyone was happy and all… Even my best friend plus her sis and mum stayed over in my place.. We had a great time spending together… But it was the after effect… I was extremely exhausted after that… Alot of things left undone.. Which I barely have time to do it now… Lost on where I should start with. Just printed notes for my today’s lectures… Reading reminders’ email to revise and read through our lecture notes before entering the next lectures and tutorials; which I had not started yet. Just beyond words to explain how exhausted I’m feeling right now at this very moment….
Okie I shall stop whining about that… :D Already done that to my besties… What else.. Nothing much.. It’s going to be a long day today.. Was just adding my classmates on facebook, and was going through their profile.. All of us are sharing the same pinch… Hope each and everyone of us will pull through well with all the stress we are going through… :o)
Time to get back to work… More to come… I need to inherit my habit back on blogging…. :) So see ya =)
So many question arises after my lecture and apparently I wanted to tweet about it… But thought why not express it as a blog post instead…
I was wondering if I was actually sitting in an IT class or a Psychology class. But realise that I was actually learning how IT is affecting one Psychologically. First question, is IT a master or a tool? Are we dominating it or it’s dominating us… Actually it is still debatable and it’s according to what kind of aspect it’s coming from? Do we know that we are actually going through a phase of first life and second life?
Coming back to my first qn. Are we too dependable to IT? I’m currently travelling in the bus and almost all the people who are standing around me are having a smart phone/tablet. Can you name someone who doesn’t own a smart phone? Or at least a mobile phone? How would you actually react to a situation when you asked someone for their number and they tell you that they do not own one? Quoting from my lecturer; one also actually feels like a “cold turkey” without having their mobile phones around. For eg. Like a smoker who suddenly stop smoking. True indeed. These days people are in a “Always On” mode. So how does it affect One’s life. I would definitely argue that there are pros and cons because of IT.
First let’s go with the pros. Everything to do with our daily life requires IT. Be it work, school, entertainment, relationships et.al.. It became another key point in our life, like water, food and air. Having to be working and studying, I communicate with my colleagues through email. We have several systems around us to refer to and work with. There were point of time we can’t finish a particular job without accessing that particular system we need to use. As for my studies, My lecturer send us notes through email. We have a learning system to refer to our references/online libraries and do Submissions of assignments online. IT is very much advanced that, even when you are sending an email to someone, it is as same as sending a SMS to them as now smart phones have push services. Everything is fast-paced in Technology. Things are done fast using technology. We can work/study on the go. like this I can go on and so forth..
Now to the cons, when was the last time we actually wrote something using a pen and paper? At least a paper long??? During our school/college days? After that what happens? Everything is done via computer. Well at least for me, I feel that I can actually type faster than I write. Can you believe that I can’t even write something now? I found myself struggling to take down notes and end up typing notes?? Isn’t it amusing that, a day without your mobile, is like a day being retarded? Just imagining myself? How would one feel or what happens if you forgets you mobile phone? Have you ever wonder how does it actually affects ur mind. Have you ever been mentally affected? Do you find yourself being moody or frustrated without your device?
During my school days, whenever I travel out with my family or friends, I would always bring along a story book so that I can read while travelling. Or else I would be chit chatting with the people who are with me. More direct communication were involved. Nowadays children are using iPhone to play games. Children owning a smartphone at a very young age. In several occasions, I’ve noticed parents whom are always involved with their career wherever they go, and let their children be with their own gadgets. I got mh first mobile phone I was a teenager? My main purpose to have a mobile phone was to be contactable. But now, from contacting to smsing to emailing to e-shopping to every other daily life things are being done with a small device.
There are several examples which can be listed on how it affects/helps in One’s life.
Wrapping up : Even though I feel it’s unfinished post; as I had several things to share but unable to do it due to time constraint. My conclusion is; the more technology is getting advanced, the more people are getting busy. The more people getting busy, the more people are lagging in their personal life. Having being lagging in personal life, there are plenty of fallbacks in One’s life. Basically personal life becomes a computer life. How I wish I could say that, we can have limitations when it comes technology but how can we, when now everything is about technology? That’s how life have become…. As much as we want to say that we dominate IT, we have to eventually accept that IT actually dominates us.
PS : I hope I could share more in the near future about first life and second life and how are actually people psychologically driven to it.
