NazReens WebLog

This is the day I realise

I’m the biggest fool on earth

Time had shown me the symptoms

But’d been so stupid to have denied

I’m wishing for a small death to pass by

And a little awakening to another life

Oh Allah, please bring me the strength

Please bring me the colours

Oh Allah, to you, today I plead most;

I really beg

A small death & a never awakening

I’m always too late
I see the train leaving
I’m always laughing
When it’s not cool to smile

I’m always aiming
But somehow keep missing
So how did you get here
Something is wrong

[CHORUS:]
Where did I go right
How did I get you
How come all this blue sky is around me
And you found me
Where did I go right
How did I get you
I don’t know how I did
But somehow now I do

I’m always driving
Forget where I’m going
Should have turned left
But I was singing some song
And I, I am arriving
As everyone’s leaving
But there you are waiting
Something is wrong

[CHORUS]

Makes no sense to me
No it isn’t clear
But somehow you’re standing here
Something gets to me
It’s that nothing is wrong

[CHORUS 2X]

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

‘Cause I’ll doze off safe and soundly
But I’ll miss your arms around me
I’d send a postcard to you, dear
‘Cause I wish you were here

I’ll watch the night turn light-blue
But it’s not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn’t so bad
‘Til I look at my hands and feel sad
‘Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I’ll find repose in new ways
Though I haven’t slept in two days
‘Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I’ll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don’t feel so alone

I don’t feel so alone, I don’t feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I’ll think of you tonight
I’ll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I’ll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won’t forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I’d whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

A little girl, one day, stood by the roadside, admiring the many cars that whizzed by. She smiled to herself. “Wow, their journey must be great ones.” Then, one day, a car stopped by. A chap called out, “hey little one, just pop in. No worries, I bet I will hold on to you.” And so her journey began. It was beautiful. Every moment was nice and comfy. She smiled. She enjoyed. The car moved on. There and then, it fumbled and tumbled through paths of rocks. All along, in her heart, she said to herself, someone had said he’s gonna hold on. The trust held her, for she too held on.

Then, their car came to a crossroad. ” Hey I’m gonna take that way. I’m sorry but I’ve to drop you off.” It was a matter of 2 minutes, those words exchanged.

Hmmm… what was it for that she held on so tight? What was it for that she’d fought? What was it for that then she’d to be left back; back at the same roadside?

She wiped her tears and prayed each day. Oh God, let the journey for him be at least most nice and smooth.

By the roadside as she stood. Smiling and tearing, walking but fearing.

Then, again, another chap called to that little girl. “Hey kiddo, just pop in.” Sigh was she really a kiddo?

There she stays by the roadside. Looking at all those cars whizzing by. Somethings inside kills her often. Oh god, she called. She needed a shoulder. She couldn’t handle all alone. Mama….she called. “Oh my baby, what are you crying for?” “Mama… mama… abcdefg…. ” she explains. In her mother’s arms, she stays.

by the little girl ~

Hey there,

First and foremost, I think I should not start to bullshit that I’m back or whatsoever, as I’m never consistent. Sorry guys.. Just caught up with some other stuffs and also kind of lose momentum on writing. But here thought of starting up with my review on “Eclipse” which I had been waiting for months. Well finally it premiered on the 1st of July here in Singapore and my cousin actually booked the tickets 3 days earlier the show..

Well went with 6 of my loved ones, which includes, my best friend, my siblings and two of my cousins. Well, if we get together we are “so called” the crazy gang.

As always, thanks to my sis and my cousin sis who came in a lil late, kinda missed about 5 mins of the show.. & the funniest part was that, I actually thought I was in the wrong theatre…!! xD ! Until, i had to ask a guy who was sitting beside me and vithu, what movie was this.. I mean come on! What would you think when they start the movie with “Riley” starting up with a new vampire troupe[i actually missed it] and when the book starts with “Jacob’s” letter…!! :D Jokes apart. What would I say about the movie.. I was totally quiet when the movie was over. [my concentration was totally out actually!] but I would say that the movie was awesome! [ well at least for an ardent twilight saga fan] .. Not to mention about the peepz who came with me, besides my best friend, everyone else were disappointed and felt “cheated” ! haha..

First thing, when the movie was over, everyone turned to me and asked… “how was the movie? and i was just quiet… They ASSUMED i didn’t like the movie either, but they failed to realise that I was totally out of the world… They were all murmuring among themselves and my friend started asking me qns as she was the only soul found it fine… Stepping out from the theatre just me and finally this is what I exactly told in the lift ” well I should not expect much from the director, cos from a 542 pages of book coming out with a 2 hr movie, he did his best and hats off to him” and my cousin sister who stomped infront of me was like “akka I know you like the movie so much! so it’s ok ” :D

Well since I thought it was “PG” rated movie, I didn’t mind asking my bro to tag along with us.. But there were some scenes which could have been avoidable or at least rated as “NC16″ . Cos sitting beside your brother and watching it was kinda disaster.. xD!! no comments on that, cos for a youth movie.. it was “ahem .. ahem.. ” Rather then that Kristen Stewart [Bella] was looking pretty especially with her permed hair in graduation suit” Her acting were so the “Bella” kinda gal. I don’t understand why people mock her.. Her acting seemed to be perfectly fine for me and she does give that kinda “loner” and “anti-social” feel. Well for those who didn’t read the book, you don’t know her.. Get your facts right first…! [Guess am getting personal here.. Oooooops!] Awwww..Robert Pattinson[ Edward Cullens]!!!! He was way tooo better in “Eclipse” than in New Moon!!! Yes the “Twilight” Edward is back in action!!!!! ;) & off course not forgetting Taylor Lautner[Jacob Black] … Well the cunning little guy, did fairly well in his role too…. Well all were Perfecto! [at least for me] ….  It was that much can be done.. and was at least at it’s best[ex. for some unwanted scenes]…

Now for some scenes which I liked, for eg. the graduation speech by Jessica… It was so touching and the scene was beautifully taken… I looked at every inch of it and it sparkled me. Well the other one was especially the “tent” scene everyone is talking about… It was the most most most best scene ever….! Even though it is a little different compared to the book, I loved it to the max!! Guyss check out on the chapter of this particular scene.. It’s simply awesome.. [the convo btwn Jake and Edward] I found the war between the new born vampires , cullens and the warewolves could have been a little longer as it was like in “split seconds” [should blame the misleading trailer off course] …  & not forgetting, the scene between the father[Charlie] and daughter[Bella] was kinda cute! & off course dislocated..Lolzz.. Finally, the part, after the training for the war with the wolves and the cullens, the scene by Bella & Jake(as a wolf) was nice…    Hmmm… What else??? I wish I could go on and on but I guess it’s better for you guys to watch and enjoy it![at least twifans]

OK folks, that’s all for now…!!! No more promises, until then signing off….

One and Only

Naz ;)

PS: I suck at reviews.. :P